Wow. It's just hitting me how much stuff is happening right now in my life.
Some of you know some of this already, but it's been on my mind a lot and it seems as good a time as any to tell you all. First, and most important, my dad is not doing well. In fact, he's dying. Not quickly, not painfully, but gradually and definitely dying. He's been getting gradually sicker for about three years now. Specifically, he has pulmonary fibrosis--nobody knows where it comes from for sure, and there's no cure or even treatment. He's just getting weaker and smaller. Needless to say, it's the hardest thing I've ever gone through.
I'm mostly telling you all this because riding with you every week is one of the things that's making this more bearable. It's almost as good as therapy (which I'm doing also). Thank you all for being my support group, even if you didn't know you were. Sundays have been the only time when I can completely let go of the rest of my life, ride motorcycles, talk shit and eat terrible things. Just don't let me bum any cigarettes. That's the last thing I need.
The second thing is that Kim and I decided we have to move this month. So, I need to spend all my spare time apartment hunting. We're pretty picky about what we're looking for, so it doesn't leave much time for anything else this month. Thus, I won't be leading a ride this Sunday, and except for the Big Ride to NC, I probably won't get much riding in at all for a bit. Sorry to all, but I'll make it up to you soon.
Fuck.
I needed that. Thanks for reading.
Diz
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Diz -
Let us know what we can do for you. I can empathize - my father is in remission for both Multiple Myeloma AND colon cancer - and it's only a matter of time before MM comes back.
Thanks for sharing, I hope it helped.
Do whatever you need, say whatever you need to say and just go for it. We're here for you!
You know who loves you big daddy.
While, I can't truly empathize, you do have my sincerest sympathies. Do whatever you need to do to get your mind straight and your house in order, we'll be here for you.
Yo Diz... sorry you have to go through that. I watched my father go with all his ups and downs for 5 years when he battled cancer [R.I.P dad]. It's not easy. All I can say is, just take it one day at a time because each day is precious. Also don't lose sight of yourself in the process and what you need to do - like ride bikes. It's amazing how going for a ride really clears your head. If you ever want to talk about it [or not talk at all]... I'm here.
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